Faith Goal # 45 [I’m guessing here] (check)

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(Look at them, gaze at Gray’s awesomeness *laughs*)

I promised myself I would make a blog post about how the camp went. But I’d rather post something about the people I have met. Before that, I would force myself to tell something about the camp.

The camp was beyond awesome and it reminded me of God’s Great Commission but this time, laced with boldness and courage. But what really made me strive to be determined are the people I’ve met along the whole camp journey.

Surprisingly I have met: a few future campus missionaries, a superhero who studies nutrition, two teachers with one flying to Malaysia one day for a mission trip, awesome dudes and gals, and young LEADERS passionate about their calling. while I was hiding beneath…um…no, these aren’t the right words (after I have been told of my character from God Himself, maybe I must reconsider how I view myself now)…here it goes…while I was showing the fun side of me, I am really awe-mi-fied (mummified + awestruck combined together, like I was edified with marvel) by how Christ is using these people to just spread the Gospel, and yes, it lit the fire inside me.

The leaders…they’re different….each with a different story but of the same commission only with different forms. And the fact that we were seated around a four-cornered table (modern art demands a three-cornered table for style so I have now the full rights to put the ‘four-cornered’ adjective beside ‘table’ *chuckles*) and just sharing thoughts about something was really…life-turning.

But something really caught me. Before we left, our leader prayed for me. He prayed for direction. He prayed for clarity. And God was so fast in responding. *nods* Thanks bro, (if you’ll have the chance to read this, thank you). One thing more, I found hope that, wherever you go, there’s that speck of light for unity.

God was right that He would reveal to me His marvels. And this was one marvel I was ‘unrightfully’ asking from Him–that single hope that unity is possible. And it is indeed possible, with Christ as the center of our lives nothing can be so unsure.

One last thing, I prayed that God would make me meet leaders from other Victory Churches (Victory, btw, is the name of our local church). Honestly, I was expecting that I would only meet leaders from Lipa. But He was more than faithful. I met leaders from the whole region, and it’s more than blessing.

🙂 I pray that this fire won’t quench. In Jesus’ Name.

 

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Yes I’m Filipino so in this post, I’ll use Filipino.

Inaabangan daw kasi n’ya ang post ko, pero dapat kasi kagabi ko pa ‘to ipo-post kaso ginabi sa bahay nila. HAHA. Pero kasi Birthday n’ya, at putol ang description ko sa kanya n’ung year-end post ko, ito na.

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Ang lider ko na napaka-kulit at sa tingin ko n’ung una ay hinding hindi ko talaga makakasundo, pero ang galing kasi God used Him to shine a light on me. S’ya kasi ‘yung taong:

– sinasabihan ako kapag kailangan ko nang magpagupit o may fashion law akong nabe-break.

– magsasabi sa’yo ng mga love problems dahil hinding hindi na n’ya kaya pero tatanguan ko na lang ito o sasabihan ng kung anong advise eh ikakain na lang n’ya ang lahat.

– lagi kang iki-keep in touch.

– mas importante pa ang sapatos, damit atbp. kesa sa bonding (dejoke lang) o sa kung ano pang bagay.

Pero higit sa lahat, s’ya ‘yung taong:

– lider kung lider. ‘yung feeling mo kulang na lang ay tumira kayo sa isang bahay for like nine months para lang ma-train ka on hand. ang galing kasi s’ya ‘yung lider talaga, may vision, may direction at hindi lang basta direction kundi alam n’ya yung gagawin n’ya na wala s’yang pakialam sa sasabihin ng ibang tao.

– brother kung brother, kasi sa tuwing maguusap kami at may problema ako, talagang magsasabi s’ya ng encouragement at papaalala n’ya lang sa’yo kung anong role ni God sa buhay mo. tanda ko nga n’ung sobrang pressed ako ng lahat ng elemento ng mundo eh nagawa n’ya akong paiyakin sa isang restaurant, at sobrang amazing lang talaga.

– kaibigan kung kaibigan. mr. congeniality ‘yan kaya sa tingin mo, sa tuwing kasama mo, buong sambayanan ata ay kaibigan na n’ya. nand’yan s’ya lagi para sayo (hindi naman lagi, pero ramdam mo ang suporta mula sa kanya).

Minsan nga lang magtampo, at oo, tampuhin ang lider na ito (ayon na rin kay bien na best friend n’ya). Ngayon ay kasalukuyan s’yang nagtatampo kasi belated na lang ang bati ko sa kanya na official na official, pero kahit ganoon ay sana tanggapin mo pa rin ang sincerest na bati ko, pasasalamat, at sobrang amazement sa’yo.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY sa aking lider/kapatid na si Cenjei Ramos. Pasensya kung na-late anng official na bati ko sa’yo at pramis, gagawin ko dapat ‘to kaso na-late lang talaga. Hindi ko na talaga alam ang sasabihin ko kasi ikaw ay sobrang amazing na tao. Salamat dahil naging patient ka sa lahat ng tanong ko at nangdun ‘yung courage mo na mag-step in sa world na sobrang kakaiba, isang eccentric na world. Siguro kaya tayo nagkasundo (o kaya parang gumaan na rin anng pakiramdam ko sa’yo) ay dahil ng malalim mong pagiisip. Alam mo naman kasi kung gaano ko gustong palalimin ang mga iniisip ko pero nakahabol ka para i-angat ulit ako sa paghuhukay ko at sabihin sa’kin na nasa harap ko lang ang hinahanap kong sagot. At si God ‘yun.

Salamat kasi lagi mong nire-remind sa’kin na kailangan kong maging malinis at nand’yan ka (o pinapadala ka ni God) tuwing mape-press down lang ako. Salamat sa lahat coach. HAHA. Salamat sa mga bonding moments. Sabi nga ni Vonn, magiging independent na kami. Nagulat ako sa 5 mo kanina. Hindi ‘yun 5, sinong nagsabing 5 ‘yun. 9 ‘yun. Not making it 10 kasi that 1 will be room for improvement but sabi nga ni kuya rob, you’re one of the best leaders they have. I agree. At ramdam namin ‘yun bilang mga taong under ng leadership mo.

9 talaga ‘yun, ‘di ako papayag na 5 ‘yun. Hindi swabe lang, kasi nakaka-inspire ‘yung response mo lagi kay God. ‘Yung lagi mong pinapakinggan si God just to encourage us and just to ignite us once more. Na kahit simple lang ‘yung mga salitang ginagawa mo, alam naming hinugot mo ‘yun kay God. Nakaka-inspire ‘yung journey mo to know God more.

Sobrang nakaka-inspire ka coach. Isa kang coach, as in coach talaga.

Happy Birthday! 🙂 Si God na ang bahalang i-prune at gawing more fruitful pa ang buhay mo. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! 😀

 

HART HART. LABYU. HAHAHAHAHA.

 

It’s 2:00 in the morning

…and it is the moment I stumble yet again on the same roadblock. It’s like you’re playing Super Mario and stumbled upon another 2-inch green pipe and suddenly, finding yourself being bumped by super alienated versions of some short cake (walking) and some turtles (which I guess were products of God’s extreme planning to largely emphasize that turtles can go on land like forever (or maybe they’re tortoises) ). Then losing. Minus a life. Minus a life. 

A life. A life out of that infinite life. A life being restored into infinity. The life God has given you and me, the life God has given us to showcase His great love for us. The eternal life He has promised to us. That even though we lose again, we are given an infinite set of chances to stand back up again and try to walk one more time. 

And with our stance, we are changed continuously. We are cleansed inside with the wellspring that Jesus has promised Himself to give. We are being cleansed. We are saved. We are being saved. 

🙂 

Commission

Tomorrow, I officially start. 

Enough of the prep time, tomorrow I officially start. *smirks* To bring out the meat on a very big platter to you, I have just been appointed as the Big Brother of our publication. Yes, now I become an ‘entitled’ leader. But let’s not put it that way so scrap that. Forget that I have ever written that. Now I become an ‘entrusted’ leader. 

Although I was appointed two weeks ago, it is tomorrow that I start to bring out God’s provision in my life, God’s training, God’s mighty and awesome powers at work. How awesome is He for He prepares you to anything, anywhere, anytime. And He does it very well. Planned. And very strategic. Because, when God tells you that it’s time. It’s time. This is it. Welcome Academic Year 2014-2015. 

Tomorrow, I officially start. 

I remember after our Making Disciples 2.0, I stared blankly on something moving (a car, I guess, and yes I had very awesome eyes, God-given eyes), and told myself, this is it. This is the start. But my lips were referring to the actual training for everything that is going to happen. Wow, so stoked. 

I am so blessed to meet a person who I sense is very passionate about knowing God more and I’m stoked and overly blessed to be part of his walk with Christ. I am so blessed to be a classmate and a friend of one who, I sense, is seeking that of which Christ can fully offer. I am so blessed to have talked to someone who, at heart, knows that he is already saved under God’s grace and that his decision is based from God. And I am so blessed that I was able to meet my exact replica–the person who, I am so blessed to be walking with, trekked through his busy schedules but is really diligent in knowing life and perfecting its knowledge. 

I am so blessed to be part of a team. Stoked that God will use me to bless people of a different culture, race, nationality, decent. 

Above all, I am so blessed for God’s continuous pruning. I am so blessed that God is using different media to tell something to me. I am so blessed to have friends. To have a spiritual family. To have a family. To have podcasts and online preachings. To have all these things. And I am so blessed to have the word of God being used by God to minister to every hearts of those who continuously seek and who seek not. 

Blessed for pruning. 🙂 This is it. 

The mission has already commenced. Training continues. Actual commission starts tomorrow. No time for stagnant moments. 

This is it. 

Mr. Whoever

This is it. One faith goal answered *smirks*, and one commission. This time, I shall invest in a lot of things. 

Here I am again making promises of changes because I am of a new pedestal. I am footed on a higher stage. I am standing on a bigger responsibility. With a bigger responsibility. At a bigger responsibility. Inside a bigger responsibility. With a bigger responsibility. With this, I shall invest in things. 

Like HEALTH and PHYSICAL STRENGTH. Not that I have decided to be a gym junkie or something, but health has got something to do to maintaining a very good mood in my workplace. Especially that it entails a lot influence to how influential my leadership would be. To smile that big is to be assured inside that my senses are properly working. This, I shall be invested in. Food. Exercise. Say it all. Maybe, I could learn a sport before the year ends. *smirks*

Also BOOKS. Not just normal books. Myths. Epics. Literary books. Etc. Plus. Magazines. Journals. Newspapers. When I need ideas (especially that this is considered an art), I shall pull ideas from other resources. And it’s just better to have guides with you. 

Hm. I’m sleepy, I shall update this soon. But before this month ends, I shall see the doctor. Ha, planned for this since the beginning of the year. Huh, not really happening. 

Anyway, these are investments. These are efforts to sow what God has given me to sow. What God has provided for me. And it is my task to enrich them and cultivate them. Yes. I am Mr. Whoever. Welcome to the world of leadership. 

Aftermath

We all have battles. And I have one that is too overwhelming. Too powerful. Too…tough. Let me share it here.

I have this battle that I really wanted to overcome. But, sadly, and horribly, and unfortunately, I can’t. I can. But I can’t. All around, there will always be stimuli floating in a nonsensical way, fluttering like it wanted to kiss you and bite you then devour you whole. At first, I always go like “meh, who cares about that.” Then it goes deeper and deeper as those stimuli begin to work on my senses. Deeper and deeper. Growing. Growing. Growing. Until you are left with nothing but its presence. And your faith. 

It is overwhelming indeed. It is. It consumes most of you at that moment the enemy corners you. And you are left with nothing but your faith. Your FAITH. In my case, my FAITH. But the enemy appears to be bigger. It appears to be stronger. It appears to be more overwhelming. And suddenly, I dive in. I catch the bait. 

Then, I am left homeless yet again. Hopeless. Used. Maltreated. Like I wanted to shout for justice but I failed to do so. i am speechless. I am left with no faith. I am guilty. I frown. I whimper. I cry. I sob. I curse myself. I wanted to punch myself to death. 

This battle is getting tougher and tougher everyday, and it is getting more frequent. Surrendered have I, but the question is, have I fully surrendered it all to Him? Or am I still holding on to the possibility that it is I who can and will overcome this rather than believing that it is Him who has already won the battle for me? Do have I faith or do I not? 

I stare at a rock. Blank. Motionless. Stagnant. What God is revealing to me today is that when the enemy is overwhelming, I have to reassure to myself that God is more powerful. Taunted I maybe, but God restores my senses to fully understand what is happening around me. 

And to escape the clutches of the enemy is to have a leap of faith. Is to hear His voice. Is to forget. And is to believe. He is faithful. He speaks to us when we are in trouble, yet He gives us the free will to choose between being overwhelmed by the enemy or hearing His voice. What to do? Surrender it all to Him. Fully. And when confronted again, rather than thinking that it can overwhelm you, I should be thinking that God has fully taken away this from me. That God has already won this battle for me. 

And I am always reminded that to kick the supernatural in, you have to do the natural. The natural things that would make you escape. The natural things that would make you empowered and make you trample over the enemy. 

When faced with these things, read His word. 

*sighs*

We all have battles. But all of them Christ has already won over. 

Fish

To be able to know God, you first have to experience Him. Corollary to that, you have to let Him make you feel Him. 

Like when we want to know light, we go out to the backyard to see light. Humans first touched fire to see if it’s really hot, and tasted ice just to know if it’s really cold. As a child you have driven your finger into the socket just to know there is electricity. People knew there existed the electricity because they received their first electric shocks from the electric fish. Likewise, we knew electricity was existing when we saw out hair get magically stuck on our chair. 

We read the whole book to know if the story’s just right. We watch the whole movie just to know if the protagonist’s really wise or something. We know Flappy Bird’s addicting but we played anyway just to experience the fun that others have experienced. We all gave them the chance. 

But have you ever given this “God” a chance? Or you just thought we were shouting His name just because we’re stupid and we are afraid to stand on our own? 

Me. I have experienced Him. A million times since my first breath. Every second. Every minute. And the very minute that He made fishes jump out the river just to make me remember that I should be someone. Just to make me smile. Just to make me feel loved. 

To know there is love, we must know it’s there. We must experience it. To know there is God, we must know He’s there. We must experience Him. And we must let Him make us experience Him. 🙂